Post Traumatic Butt Hurt

This week I found out that one of my ex's is getting married. Quite a shock since he told me that he never wanted to get married, but oh well. The only way I can describe the feelings I had when I found out was "PTBH". Not that I want to have him back or anything, but that it was a shock. He totally broke my heart but I am not going to be bitter over it or anything. At least that is what I keep telling myself. I think I am more shocked and angry with myself because I still have emotional reactions when it comes to him. Not that I want him back or anything but that I wish he was miserable and lonely. I'm pretty much over it now, which is nice. I won't send them a wedding gift or anything, but I do wish him the best of luck. Not room for hating in my heart. This guy isn't my last ex, the alcoholic, it was the really pretty but dumb guy. It made me think about something really funny, though... I was thinking about how much I adored him, pretty much total infatuation. Then I thought about how I could best describe it & the only way I could describe it would be "I loved him like a retarded person loves a bunny". I know you can picture a "special" person holding a bunny... Squeezing it for dear life with a HUGE grin on their face. That is how I loved him. I think if a guy told me that he loved me like a "retarded person loves a bunny" I would jump him on the spot. How sad, that would be one of the most romantic things someone could tell me... Maybe that is why I have such stellar taste in men... Must up my standards...

Oh, as for Michael Bolton, Drummergirl & I were talking about her new Pilate's class where they have this big contraption that you use. I asked her if she had a "safety word" and then we got on the topic of SW and I said mine would be "Michael Bolton" because he's a mood killer. Then I found this pic and laughed until I realized that he has my hair style minus the bangs... So sad but still a cute cut... Oh & I couldn't find a "special" person holding a bunny... I really didn't look that hard because I felt slightly guilty about it.