What can I say?

I'm not gonna deny that he was a weird guy with some serious problems, but right now there is a 7 year old little girl inside crying over the death of her idol. I hope you are finally at peace....

Day 10

It's been 10 days since I've smoked. It is getting easier with the wellbutrin, but it still sucks. Never smoke, kids. Quitting sucks. I don't like how the wellbutrin makes me feel, but it helps immensely with the yearning to smoke so I will take them for a little while longer until I've fully detoxed. Nothing much else going on.

Day 2 or 3....whatever...

I am on day 2 of not smoking. Well, really my third day of not smoking, because I didn't smoke Monday, but Tuesday the monkey hopped back on my back. This sucks. I figured out some rough math to make myself stick to quitting... I have been smoking since I was 17. That is smoking on a regular basis. I smoked occasionally before then, but it was to look cool. That is a total of 16.75 years of smoking, which breaks down to roughly 6383 days. If I average 10 cigarettes per day on average, I smoked 63,830 cigarettes which is about 3,191.5 packs I purchased. At the first 1,000 at $2, the second 1,000 at $3 & so forth up to the current price of $5 a pack, I've spent roughly $10,000 on killing myself & trying to be cool..... When I look back at why I started I guess it started as a child because both my parents smoked. They smoked in the house & in the car with us. It was the 70's & 80's so it was the norm. As I got into high school, I did it to be cool, plus I love the line in one Soundgarden song about "Sharing a cigarette with negativity". Yes I was all about grunge. After high school I worked at Tower where in order to have a break & to fit in with everyone you smoked. After that, I was hooked. It was actually at tower where I switched from mostly cloves to cigarettes because the rest of the staff who smoked hated the way they smell & made me start smoking regular cigarettes. I can agree because clove smoke makes me sick now. I can say that I was always loyal to Marlboro. Never switched brands, just types. Started with Marlboro lights, then to Marlboro light 100s, then back to Marlboro lights & ending up with Marlboro ultra lights 100's. All in the box. Well, I guess that is it for my bitchy post/dear John post to quitting smoking. I'm going to go find a retarded kid to beat using a baby seal now....

I have arrived!

I am finally in the new place & it is coming together nicely. I'm not blogging from there as we are having problems with the Internet & are planning to get them resolved this weekend. The cats have adapted nicely. Billie loves it & Gary loves it also. We started letting Gary outside & it seems that he prefers to be indoors. He will go out & then come back a while later so that he can poop at the house. Funny little guy. Drummergirl is getting tons of kitty lovin' from him. It took a few days to get him from my old place because the crazy people who live next door tried to kidnap him but I got him & he is home making muffins & nursing on everything he can get his paws on. The house is starting to feel like home & it's been awesome being able to finally cook. I am not completely unpacked, but that is what weekends are for. There are so many birds and squirrels at the new place. Last weekend it was like squirrel island outside in the trees and on the roof. There were at least a dozen squirrels chasing, chatting, and swinging from tree to tree. Very cool squirrel mayhem. Last night I went to my step nephew's high school graduation. Crazy. All the kids are getting so big. It was great seeing my step brother & sister & their spouses & kids. It's been a few years since I've seen them since our parents moved. On a totally different note, I had a huge zit on my upper lip & I discovered after I "took care" of it (trying not to be gross) it was an ingrown mustache hair. I had naired my 'stache this weekend. I didn't know they could get ingrown. To explain the picture, I keyworded unicorn & home and this little gift from the google images gods popped up. Just in case you didn't figure it out, it's Obama nekked on a unicorn. That's all for now, but hopefully we will have the laptops set up this weekend so I can blog more.